a confession...
The importance of standing for truth and integrity in a world that seeks to oppress.
I left social media on June 10th, and in doing so, I also left behind an identity–a version of myself that no longer felt aligned.
I left all social media platforms and my podcast for a much-needed sabbatical to honor my mental and emotional needs, and to offer myself a break from the lack of safety that I was experiencing by being in the public eye. Prior to leaving, I made a promise to my community that I would remain in connection through weekly emails and text messages and as a woman of integrity, I confess that I did not follow through on that promise
Navigating our legal journey to seek #JusticeForLeia has been heavily entrenched in darkness.
Never have I ever felt my core values or integrity catalyzed in such ways.
Never have I ever felt so pushed into silence.
With that said, never have I ever felt so unsafe within my own online spaces, which include my social media, email, and text messaging communities. Safety is something we all deserve to experience, and yet we are currently living in a world where many are attempting to control, oppress, and infiltrate our lives. I asked myself “How can I create impenetrable spaces for healing?” This is why I have chosen to create measures to protect my online spaces.
Truth matters to me.
It’s something that I will always stand for. My ‘brand’ doesn’t define me. My identity–who I BE–defines my brand. Without our voices, there is no truth.
Integrity. Authenticity. Intimacy. Humility. Potency.
These aren’t just words that I spit out to paint my brand image. These are words that I embody–these are pillars for how I choose to show up daily, and not just online. And ‘truth’ isn’t just a word that I speak–it’s how I live.
So how do we stand in our integrity, authenticity, intimacy, humility, and potency inside a system that seeks to oppress it?
How do we start standing deep within the wells of potent medicine that is found at the core of our trauma so we can rise as potent leaders?
Our journey to seek #JusticeForLeia is still ongoing, and as challenging as it has been, it has also brought me closer to God and in deeper alignment with my true Dharma.
As a trained coach and medicine guide, my personal journey has served as a sacred rite of passage that has elevated my ability to create transformative spaces for my clients to heal and thrive. It is through this recent dark chapter of my journey that God illuminated my true Dharma–a path that encompasses the fullest expression of my gifts and medicine while addressing my innate desire to serve clients in the deepest depths of their own journeys.
I’ve chosen to begin a 3-year program to become a trauma-trained Somatic Experiencing Practitioner, and I am continuing to deepen my practice as a Spiritual Guide and Ceremonialist for leaders. I’ve also decided that I do not wish to come back to social media FT as promised in September. To be honest, I’m still not certain if I want to come back at all.
You have to ask yourself:
Does my usage of social media serve me (or my Dharma)? Or is social media working against me? Does social media feel aligned with where I find myself today?
Perhaps I’ll come back to social media PT, but I’m not rushing that decision as of this moment.
I am on the cusp of creating pivotal changes in the way that I serve, teach, and show up for my Dharma. From being someone who once thrived in the public eye, to being someone who now feels as though I thrive in private, intimate spaces, the online space feels cluttered with confusion and illusion; nothing is held sacred. The true meaning of leadership has become lost to the lure of influencership and service has become performative.
This ongoing journey has thrown me into deeper states of compassion and empathy for those I serve while expanding my capacity to hold profound space for those who are traversing their own dark nights. Having to hold this space for myself while navigating new traumas has had me unlearn so much from the self-help and personal development industries while relearning what is truly required to be present for someone through the most difficult of times.
I am proud of the spaces that I have held and created for clients throughout this past year as I have walked through my own darkness. Albeit I have been taking on perhaps one-eighth of the clientele that I am accustomed to (this is due to holding integrity and humility and understanding my capacity to serve at this time,) the spaces that I have held for the few clients that I have chosen to journey with over these past 14ish months have been profoundly potent.
What’s become clear to me through this journey is that I now get to create spaces where I can express myself fully again, while still keeping myself and my family safe. I get to create safer spaces to teach and connect with my community.
Quieter communities that aren’t bombarded with the noise that we so often get hit with on social media.
More intimate communities that allow space for people to feel seen, heard, and truly acknowledged.
Communities that foster connection, healing, and growth vs. disconnection, retraumatization, and stagnancy.
Spaces with vetted members so you can feel free to fully express yourself without fear of being attacked, oppressed, censored, or canceled.
As I begin to emerge back here with my writing, I’m also in the midst of creating different processes for my community to connect with me and work with me so that I can also ensure a deeper sense of safety for those who choose to be in my spaces–whether it be here, on social media, or in online or in-person offerings.
No one should ever walk through life feeling unsafe, and yet we do.
Trauma is very real. Dark times exist. We need to normalize trauma healing so that we can begin to have potent containers for conversations that feel supportive and transformative, and not dismissive or deceptive. I intend to support the creation of these spaces–for myself and my community. Yet this will take time as I want to ensure that I do this with deep intention and integrity to myself and to you.
For now, here are a few ways for us to connect:
If you wish to read more of my writing…
*As of right now, my current writing is available here without a paid subscription, however, that will be changing in the near future.
If you wish to catch up on podcast episodes…
*I am still reflecting on the future of Potent Truth. As of right now, it is still on pause and may remain on pause for longer than I had planned.
If you wish to work with me…
*The pre-screen form is new and is in place to confirm your identity prior to connecting with me. This is a safety precaution that I have decided to put into place due to fraudulent impersonation in my online spaces.
Please note that I have a few options to work with me and very limited space for new clients. Again, this is because I am fully aware of my capacity at this time and am devoted to only holding space with absolute integrity for those I serve.
One of my new offerings is a Guidance Session. This is a 2-hour deep dive session to guide you into alignment by shedding light on that which you have yet to see. Whether you feel stuck, uncertain, or are experiencing resistance, you’ll receive the clarity you need to take that first step forward onto a path that is aligned with your true self.
Please complete the pre-screen form to confirm your identity, and once confirmed, I will personally reach out to you with details.
To you, my beloved community…
Thank you for your understanding, patience, prayers, and love. And thank you for choosing to be present in my community. I deeply appreciate you.
I’ll leave you with this #PotentTruth:
Who you’re being and how you show up for yourself and others matters more than what you’re doing and what you’ve achieved.
I left 3 years ago and haven’t looked back. It was the best decision for me.
Love YOU ♥️