One of the most powerful pieces I’ve ever read showing the reality of trauma, healing, and a midlife call for individuation. It’s not pretty, it’s not marketable, and it’s not what you’ll see sold on social media - but it’s the raw reality of what it’s like to go through the underworld and emerge from the ashes. Thank you so much for sharing. Brought tears to my eyes.
Thank you so much. Your words… this reflection… truly… thank you. It’s not pretty and it’s definitely not marketable… but it’s the truth, and I honestly believe many will resonate. 🥹🙏🏽
Well ..maybe "it" doesn't result in "marketable" ...but you, your story, your evolving soul-full self is in a much different "market." Not too many people have the courage to speak and write about the beauty of falling apart, the courage to keep loving, and living, and the real essence of being human, ... Soul-full. My husband read this yesterday and said "This IS your story." I resonate bone deep. Thank you for being exactly who you are then, now, and ongoing. You are a beautiful soul.
Ruby I can't express how your writing touched my deeper being, validated, and encouraged acceptance of my own journey. I love that you write when there is “flow.” So do I (not publicly) and I've realized it comes from deeper places, NOT performing, not “achieving,” …just BEing whever and whoever without pressure. Your writing is public and I can only imagine how that might be. Thank you for being your beautiful, honest, authentic self.
“When your life falls apart, it’s not the end—it’s the invitation”. This right here! I can relate deeply to so much of what you write. the identities, the roles, the “shoulds”, the shame, the shedding etc and the rebuild - all of it is sacred. I wish you healing and clarity! Thanks for sharing. I am in my own season of acceptance and surrender. What a ride! 🙏🏼🌹
I looked for an emoji of a tuning fork so I could post two side by side moving in resonance.
Alas, I offer a hug instead 🤗
I'm a 50 year old Irish male and have been through so much of this journey. A survivor of psychiatry, a discoverer of astrology and an endurance traveler - finding my True Self, bit by bit.
Some of these things help me: beautiful forests, nature and the sea; breathwork; Lion's Mane 🍄; energy work (Rahanni); stillness; sound healing; precious, deep & meaningful connections; opening up and embracing my Wyrd.
It's a hell of a journey here for sensitives, empaths, INFJs and similar, so travel gently and travel well.
I recognize so much in what you write. The kissing death part and your thoughts of guilt, but also the cptsd induced cognitive decline. It's scary when the body and psyche judt give up. For me it has been a little further back, but it was hell on earth...and I made it through. Five, six years on and I'm still healing. Because the challenges kept coming even after that. It's only the past four months I've felt like myself again, feeling that life is answering me again, if that makes sense. Thanks for sharing your journey. Subscribed 💚
Thank you for this honest share. I’m so happy you’re healing and have made it through. That takes so much courage and a true devotion to self. I see you and appreciate your presence here. 🤍🙏🏽
2023 and 2024 my life completely crashed too.. barely able to get out of bed to care for my 8 year old child while pregnant with my 2nd. It was the most excruciating time of my life. It showed me every single wound I ever put a bandaid on praying it would go away. I was 100% lost.. praying I'd find my way out of the pitch black. Unsure that even if I did, I'd be able to make life work raising two children. I cried more tears in 9 months than ever before.. but while absolutely falling apart.. I found my strength. I rediscovered my faith.. I found my voice.. and my worth. The baby is almost 10 months old and it's all brand new.. still shaking like a newborn giraffe trying to find my legs but I have never felt more free from every single thing that attempted (and for far too long succeeded) to shackle me. Your story resonated in so many ways!! A shift occurred in 2022. I've crossed paths with so many people who have unintentionally plunged head first onto a deep inner healing journey in the last 3 years. It's beautiful. I believe in the good things coming. Thank you for sharing your story. 🤍
I’m so happy to hear that you found your strength, rediscovered your faith, and found your voice and worth. Sounds like you went thru a potent journey… and honestly, despite our differing journeys, I FEEL you. Thank you so much for sharing so much of your heart with me. 🤍🙏🏽
You have no idea, and I have no words to share how impacting this article is. Although I can say I am swimming (deeply) in the waters of cognitive issues, and you have shared you are as well. Each of us in our own ways and some similar
.
What I'd like to share is that this piece has bright tears to my eyes pretty much all the way through.
So many blessings and so much Love with so much respect and gratitude 🤍🫶🏼🙏🏼🫶🏼🤍
I'm just stepping out from a very similar story. Except I asked my parents for help and was denied. I didn't ask for money, but I could barely get out of bed, I needed their time. It's been a rough road Navigating those feelings. I thought I had healthy boundaries in place, but I've completely stopped talking to my parents for how they reacted to death knocking on my door. I just feel done with a lot of things.
I’m sorry you didn’t receive the support that you need and desire. Your ASK required a lot of courage, and their response leaves you with so much to process, on top of everything else. No advice… just know that I see you and acknowledge what you feel. 🤍
So much depth, raw honesty and vulnerability. It’s absolutely beautiful to read. It’s heart wrenching and yet so healing to read how you’ve navigated, as my journey has mirrored parts of yours. The letting go and allowing things to be what they are, is the bravest, most rewarding path. Sending you all the love as you continue to heal and accept how this life is molding you💝
Thank you so much. It’s so true… letting go and truly allowing things to be and unfold is brave AF. Sometimes, we need to be pushed to the point where we have nothing left to give so we can allow. I see you and wish you joy on your journey ahead 🤍🥹
One of the most powerful pieces I’ve ever read showing the reality of trauma, healing, and a midlife call for individuation. It’s not pretty, it’s not marketable, and it’s not what you’ll see sold on social media - but it’s the raw reality of what it’s like to go through the underworld and emerge from the ashes. Thank you so much for sharing. Brought tears to my eyes.
Thank you so much. Your words… this reflection… truly… thank you. It’s not pretty and it’s definitely not marketable… but it’s the truth, and I honestly believe many will resonate. 🥹🙏🏽
Well ..maybe "it" doesn't result in "marketable" ...but you, your story, your evolving soul-full self is in a much different "market." Not too many people have the courage to speak and write about the beauty of falling apart, the courage to keep loving, and living, and the real essence of being human, ... Soul-full. My husband read this yesterday and said "This IS your story." I resonate bone deep. Thank you for being exactly who you are then, now, and ongoing. You are a beautiful soul.
Thank you so much for this loving response, and to you and your husband for reading it. I’m comforted to know that this resonates with you. 🤍
Ruby I can't express how your writing touched my deeper being, validated, and encouraged acceptance of my own journey. I love that you write when there is “flow.” So do I (not publicly) and I've realized it comes from deeper places, NOT performing, not “achieving,” …just BEing whever and whoever without pressure. Your writing is public and I can only imagine how that might be. Thank you for being your beautiful, honest, authentic self.
🥹🤍🙏🏽
“When your life falls apart, it’s not the end—it’s the invitation”. This right here! I can relate deeply to so much of what you write. the identities, the roles, the “shoulds”, the shame, the shedding etc and the rebuild - all of it is sacred. I wish you healing and clarity! Thanks for sharing. I am in my own season of acceptance and surrender. What a ride! 🙏🏼🌹
Thank you so much! And I wish you so much healing in your journey of acceptance and surrender 🤍
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Thank you do much for this 🙏
I looked for an emoji of a tuning fork so I could post two side by side moving in resonance.
Alas, I offer a hug instead 🤗
I'm a 50 year old Irish male and have been through so much of this journey. A survivor of psychiatry, a discoverer of astrology and an endurance traveler - finding my True Self, bit by bit.
Some of these things help me: beautiful forests, nature and the sea; breathwork; Lion's Mane 🍄; energy work (Rahanni); stillness; sound healing; precious, deep & meaningful connections; opening up and embracing my Wyrd.
It's a hell of a journey here for sensitives, empaths, INFJs and similar, so travel gently and travel well.
You know your s⊙ul path now. X
It’s definitely a hell of a journey, but it’s also the most profound journey we could ever take. I see you. Thank you 🙏🏽
I recognize so much in what you write. The kissing death part and your thoughts of guilt, but also the cptsd induced cognitive decline. It's scary when the body and psyche judt give up. For me it has been a little further back, but it was hell on earth...and I made it through. Five, six years on and I'm still healing. Because the challenges kept coming even after that. It's only the past four months I've felt like myself again, feeling that life is answering me again, if that makes sense. Thanks for sharing your journey. Subscribed 💚
Thank you for this honest share. I’m so happy you’re healing and have made it through. That takes so much courage and a true devotion to self. I see you and appreciate your presence here. 🤍🙏🏽
Ruby, My heart! Big love to you. xoxo
2023 and 2024 my life completely crashed too.. barely able to get out of bed to care for my 8 year old child while pregnant with my 2nd. It was the most excruciating time of my life. It showed me every single wound I ever put a bandaid on praying it would go away. I was 100% lost.. praying I'd find my way out of the pitch black. Unsure that even if I did, I'd be able to make life work raising two children. I cried more tears in 9 months than ever before.. but while absolutely falling apart.. I found my strength. I rediscovered my faith.. I found my voice.. and my worth. The baby is almost 10 months old and it's all brand new.. still shaking like a newborn giraffe trying to find my legs but I have never felt more free from every single thing that attempted (and for far too long succeeded) to shackle me. Your story resonated in so many ways!! A shift occurred in 2022. I've crossed paths with so many people who have unintentionally plunged head first onto a deep inner healing journey in the last 3 years. It's beautiful. I believe in the good things coming. Thank you for sharing your story. 🤍
I’m so happy to hear that you found your strength, rediscovered your faith, and found your voice and worth. Sounds like you went thru a potent journey… and honestly, despite our differing journeys, I FEEL you. Thank you so much for sharing so much of your heart with me. 🤍🙏🏽
Dearest Ruby,
You have no idea, and I have no words to share how impacting this article is. Although I can say I am swimming (deeply) in the waters of cognitive issues, and you have shared you are as well. Each of us in our own ways and some similar
.
What I'd like to share is that this piece has bright tears to my eyes pretty much all the way through.
So many blessings and so much Love with so much respect and gratitude 🤍🫶🏼🙏🏼🫶🏼🤍
Sherrie… the world is truly a better place because of the presence of your warm heart. Thank you 🙏🏽
I'm just stepping out from a very similar story. Except I asked my parents for help and was denied. I didn't ask for money, but I could barely get out of bed, I needed their time. It's been a rough road Navigating those feelings. I thought I had healthy boundaries in place, but I've completely stopped talking to my parents for how they reacted to death knocking on my door. I just feel done with a lot of things.
I’m sorry you didn’t receive the support that you need and desire. Your ASK required a lot of courage, and their response leaves you with so much to process, on top of everything else. No advice… just know that I see you and acknowledge what you feel. 🤍
Thank you
So much depth, raw honesty and vulnerability. It’s absolutely beautiful to read. It’s heart wrenching and yet so healing to read how you’ve navigated, as my journey has mirrored parts of yours. The letting go and allowing things to be what they are, is the bravest, most rewarding path. Sending you all the love as you continue to heal and accept how this life is molding you💝
Thank you so much. It’s so true… letting go and truly allowing things to be and unfold is brave AF. Sometimes, we need to be pushed to the point where we have nothing left to give so we can allow. I see you and wish you joy on your journey ahead 🤍🥹
Thank you for sharing your brave vulnerable journey 🙏♥️
Thank you for taking the time to read this 🙏🏽🥹🤍
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